1/21

Kissed her ivory hips
as if I was tickling the black keys
of a piano.
They’re the odd ones
you say
but so are we. 

Giggling through the howls
of a Tom Waits song as if
we’re in on it too.

After tinkering with keys
you’ve got nothing left to play.
So douse the piano in gasoline.
Flame licked legs and dripping veneer.
Snapped strings in and out of tune.
Every piano fire burns this way.
Every piano fire ends this way.
The explosion
The confusion of the fog
of the fire extinguisher.

Grit teeth and white heat.

The piano is broken,
but we’ll get another one.

 

If you’re in a relationship and you haven’t listened to this song with your significant other with or without clothes, you need to do that right meow.

12/4

You’d get lost
in her fractals.
Staring for hours
trying to figure out
her equation.
This was the act
of staring
in
to her eyes.
Her infinity.

HipsBoredom sets in.

Hips
Boredom sets in.

Can’t Sleep

I could break you
with a song
that used to echo
from your stereo
across from the field
of linen sheets
where your lips trembled
with beggars’ gasps
for charity.

That Night, at the Reunion, by the Lake

  • Him: So, you're a "missus" now. How's that going?
  • Her: Oh, it's pretty good. He's a great guy. Makes me laugh. He's just about the best thing I could ask for.
  • Him: But?
  • Her: But, what?
  • Him: But you could ask for more?
  • Her: No...it's not that. I mean, he's everything I want, it's just not what I thought it would be. I know the honeymoon stage is over, but I thought there would still be some sort of madness running through me.
  • Him: Was there ever?
  • Her: Well, yeah. We had our crazy moments, our fights, our impulsiveness, that jolt you get when you're with someone...but it's like I have to try for that now, you know?
  • Him: No. I don't.
  • Her: Why are you being like that? I thought you said you were happy for me.
  • Him: I am. I am. But I don't know about trying for the jolt. It was never about trying for me. It either was there or it wasn't. You just can't force it or hope that it shows up one day.
  • Her: So <pause> was it-was it there for us?
  • Him: Always.
  • Her: Always?
  • Him: Always. Never a doubt. Never a second guess. You were always in my bones.
  • Her: Don't...
  • Him: I'm just telling you the truth. You asked and I answered. I'm not being romantic or jealous. I'm being honest.
  • Her: It doesn't help.
  • Him: Then what are you doing?
  • Her: Why did you stop fighting?
  • Him: That's not an answer. Don't change the subject.
  • Her: Please!
  • Him: Why? Because if I kept fighting, chances are I'd lose my sanity. What was the point in fighting for someone that couldn't see what they had in front of them?
  • Her: I was scared! It's not like I meant to hurt you!
  • Him: But you did. You meant to cut things off. You were scared and you didn't want to face the reality of the situation, so you ran away to another city, got a new job, new friends, new distractions and you didn't bother to confront the fact that you left pieces of yourself behind. And now you have a new life with a new boy and a new name! And you don't know where you are because you left pieces of yourself in a box I threw out a year later when I realized you weren't coming back! I can't go back there. I picked up my shit and moved on! Don't bring me your marriage's dirty laundry just because your husband can't figure out how to work your washing machine's dials, or yours for that matter!
  • Her: Why are you being like this!?
  • Him: Because when you fight for someone, you only end up fighting with yourself... and I don't need a rematch. I sincerely hope you're happy, but I can't do this right now.

3/30

A tip of the scales,

a turn of the tables,

rushing waves

all started

with

the tip of the tongue.

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I can’t decide if this is about revolutions or sex

An alarm rings out through the cool air.

Limbs, intertwined like snakes, unravel.

A second hand kills the clock,

from the safety of sheets.

Gentle kisses crescendo on the nape of her neck

and decrescendo the length of her architecture.

“I just want to sleep,” he says.

“I just want you to fuck me,” she replies.

They dance in stillness.

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Wine gives me weird dreams. This needs more work. Also, why do I write like this in the morning?

The War

This is an old piece. Roughly 2 years old. I’ve not touched it really since then, but those in my Google writing group ask me on a regular basis if I will ever “finish” or add to it. I thought I would share it and see if there was anything special about it to those outside of the group.

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I just kept seeing this scene play out in my head and I had to get it out somehow. Pardon any errors or wording. It’s been a while and I’m just copy/pasting. 

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He sat there, or rather, lied there in the shower. Could he fully 
extend his legs, he would, but the tub proved to be too short.  So, he 
was left to lie there, fully clothed, sitting, thinking, sleeping, 
doing nothing except letting water tickle his sweater.  He was now 
soaked completely through, water seeping into the threads coursing its 
way to the basin where it accumulated all around him. 

.

“I am a rock. I am an island,” he thought, halfway laughing at the 
absurd analogy of Mr. Paul Simon to his current situation playing out 
in a lonely apartment tub.  He sought to drown every emotion of his 
lonely island nation. 

.

No. He wasn’t particularly willing anything to work.  Just the thought 
of any action that would result in him doing work in the simplest of 
societal definitions of the word. “Work” was the very last thing he 
wanted to do, and yet it was the very first obstacle to be faced 
beginning every Monday through Friday.  Friday? This week? Maybe 
not… 

.

“Maybe I’ll go to the beach.” 

.

“Hi.” 

.

He turned his gaze from the poker-faced faucet of the bathtub to the 
entrance of the bathroom.  She was leaning against the doorway in a 
white tee and brown, cotton pants.  Her hair was straightened today 
and pulled back in a whatever tiny ponytail her length would allow. 
The temperature suddenly changed as she stood in the doorway. 

.

Stumbling for his words, he managed to dribble. 
“I was just- I kinda…What are you doing here?” 

.

“You tell me what you’re doing in the tub…With your clothes on. 
Staring at the faucet.” 

.

She started to speak again, but she trailed off. Her words were lost 
in the steam. They lost their meanings as they drifted to the floor 
wet with condensation.  A cool breeze made its way in to the bathroom 
where it began to wipe away the vapor from the mirror, exposing her 
from another angle.  Few words were said at this point, but a barrage 
of mutterings were exploding in his brain. His jaw hung slack for a 
moment. Catching himself, he clenched his mouth shut. 

.

He had walked her out the door this morning to her car.  She was 
supposed to be on her way home to change for work. She had stayed the 
weekend with only what she wore the previous Friday night and the 
exception of his clothes. They never left. 

.

She bit her lip and looked him over for what seemed to be too long. 
She brought her arms up, criss-crossed, pulling at her shirt.  The 
pony-tail found its way to let down in the process of her pulling her 
shirt off. Hair fell in her eyes, still biting her lip, she glanced up 
as she placed a delicate hand to the small faux bronze button of her 
pants. A soft sound of release could be heard over the static roar of 
the water. Metal separating from fabric. The slow moan of her zipper. 
On the way down, teeth gave way to sky blue boy shorts. She slipped 
each leg carefully out of her pants and stood yet again, staring. 
He wasn’t even thinking about questions anymore as she stepped closer 
to the edge of the tub.  He could see the muscles beneath her soft 
skin work to move her closer to him with a calculated fluidity 
comparable to the very water he was drowning in. 
She stepped into the tub. 

.

“Fuck me…” he sighed. It was a sigh of frustration more than a 
diminished declarative statement. Either interpretation worked for him 
at this point. 

.

She bent down and knelt on her hands and knees face to face no more 
than maybe three or four inches, staring with eyes held half open. Her 
tongue danced behind her teeth. 

.

“Get up,” she said and began to stand back up pulling at his hand. The 
water gave his clothing an added weight and awkwardness. He was now 
wearing chain mail.His Her hands traced his arms up to his shoulders 
and down again to his waist where she began to relieve him of his 
armor. Both of them exposed. Standing. Swallowed in the rain.  The 
water made its way through her auburn hair, down the slopes of her 
shoulders, merging into a single stream 
 between her breasts.  It then continued coursing its way down the cut 
of her abs until interrupted by the only sign that she was, in fact, 
not a goddess <but close?>.  But still, even the interruption was 
fluid. Perfect. Expected. 

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